had happened many things and had simply changes many things. mainly would be me! don't feel appreciated and had no sense of belonging! don't ask me why..as all these flows in one after another concurrently! it's weird and i totally dislike the feeling! but it wouldn't go away! just won't! no matter how hard i try to forget and not to think about, it would just flows in directly whenever i'm free. must i really keep myself busy from not thinking of them????

i'm not pointing fingers nor finding faults. i just want to blast my feelings out on my area. i know myself but will others know? i doubt so! it's so hard to be like before! i'm so plastic and i'm so hate-ing myself for who i am right now! PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK!!!! I just want to go home...back to the place where i truely belong..where i have the sense of belonging..and being loved...will i get that??